stress destroys me!

so far,this is the busiest week of the month…its been a long week for me..since december, we were busy preparing for our case presentation..its super duper exhausting and frustrating at times…since january 2,i only had about 5 days of 8 or more hours of sleep..its not really enough if u exhaust yourself much..like sleeping at 1-2 in the morning then getting up early to be on time for either clinical duty or lecture class…this is the longest time that i ever stayed late..so sleep is really important for me now..if only it is a commodity..(sigh)

it could really be frustrating at times wen it seems like people depend on u,along with others, much…it seems like they don’t exert much effort to make things work fast and good…we are just like all of them..if they are lazy,so are we..if they are tired,how much more us who are staying up late? if they have something to do,we all have…why can’t they just sacrifice their time? or maybe just show some concern?

sad thing is,they do have a lot of potential to make things work but they don’t deliver much…people expect much from us and it is just frustrating to learn that we have not reached the line..

gosh,people just don’t realize what we’ve been through…a day prior to submission,we were still busy editing our output…we stayed up to 4 in the morning just to finish the work..its sad to learn that it seemed like others just haphazardly did their part while we are painstakingly doing ours…at the end,we were still the ones who edited some of their work…i shifted my time and attention to my drug study for the next day and our output..we were so tired by then…not to mention that we still have to go on duty in the next 3 hours…i only slept for 2-3 hours..its not enough especially if u will go on duty in the medical ICU, plus the fact the we would give our meds by then…fortunately,i was not so busy with my patient and i did not compromise care…whew! i was nearly driven to tears by frustration and fatigue…

while i am sleeping, my other classmates went out to print our output..in turn,they never get to sleep…some of them got a bit of reprimand…ahay,kaluoy sa amon…

that afternoon,i slept at 6 and was supposed to wake up at 8 to make my NCP…as i was awakened by our helper, my mind is still boggling with stuff to do..i kept on asking if "it is really fever" without being aware that i don’t make sense at all…i was just being laughed at,the next day..

still a bit tired,i went on duty…it was announced that together with those people who i work with for our presentation, we will be in charge of the contestants for the LITMUS during the u-week…kami man gyapon?? (sigh)…mals and i were just looking at each others eyes,understanding our sentiments… i slept the entire night that day..i was not able to take my dinner anymore…i just compensated for the deprivation of sleep…at least,i have rested well enough to be ready for the next day ahead..

now,i just finished my report this morning and i have another one coming up tomorrow..i still have to look for my journal reading and finish my NCP before monday comes…

i still have a lot to do…i just hope and pray the i can finish all of them before systems bug down..

mals, jeff, bry, isa, and others who have contributed a lot, thanks a million! january 18, 2007