finding solace

• holy week in hazel’s world mean prayers, sacrifice (which means an almost vegan diet) and 7th heaven marathons in studio 23.

• but this year was different. i have embraced the grace of sacrifice a whole lot more. i did not complain much about fasting and lengthy masses. i even enjoyed it and felt its meaning. i only complained about one thing though..the scorching heat!! i can’t take summer..i can thrive in cold air but not near the burning sun!

• that week, one thing was on my mind. to erase all the bitterness and hatred in me caused by the previous week by some ugly hag. i kept on thinking- "two incident reports in 2 years in college?not bad for a countess!", "people are screwing things up!", "i hate the witch", "she’s not worth my time and attention!"..but i started to realize that in life, you must know how to separate light from darkness in order to get its meaning and you should know what to fear and when to sneer.

• as i pray, i find solace in the lord. my faith is stronger now and i can say that it has driven my life more than ever. as i went to church and heard mass, i felt lighter and i decided to forgive. i trashed those grudges away. those are nothing but bad experiences that i should get over and i did. i did well.

• easter came. this is the day i’ve been waiting for. aside from the lord’s ressurection, it was also time for my hair ressurection. i had a hair rebond! i was so happy with the outcome. it seems that i don’t want to move or lie down so that my hair won’t get all scrunched up. talk about newbie freak! haha! i was preoccupied with getting my hair done the week before! all i can think about is to get my hair fixed before graduation. i was so excited that i felt nauseated the night before!hehe..

• well, i got good results. the downside? i did not wash my hair for 2 days. i went to school not washing my hair for 2 days. that’s the most i can get! my scalp got itchy by the night of the second day. good thing i was able to wash it already this morning. i also got a trim today. i deserve a treat after 4 years of venturing into excruciating school-ness!

• graduation is fast approaching! 3 days to go and i’m so excited to finally get my degree! yippee!

• but what comes next?? im quite terrified but i think i’m ready!

march 26, 2008