have u ever done a thing and suffered because u did it? i did..but even if i got my due consequences, i learned from it. It made me grew as a person and it became my story..
i was just reading my message to a friend about the incident that happend to our batch last july. we were caught doing the thing that most students does not even think twice about. It is so usual that it became a habit. It was the "c" thing..cheating..
true,that i was once proud that i was never caught doing it. But now,even typing the word "proud" makes me uncomfortable, to the extent that I’d like to replace the word..my whole world turned upside down when it happened.
i never dreamed of facing a disciplinary action. but it was meant to be. not only i was overwhelmed with fear and held by suspense,i was also drowned in slight depression. it was a whirlwind of emotions…
my consequences?reprimands, disappointments, tears, cancelled quizzes which i got high in, cancelled on-call duty,revised teaching strategies we have to get used to and most of all, cancelled capping ceremony…true enough, these were the lowest moments in our nursing life…but then,looking at the brighter side made me strong and move on..the past makes our present and we must dwell on the moment thrown upon us right now..
my gains?smiles, encouragements, reminders and realizations that made my life turn..its good that i have started to pick up broken pieces this early..what if this did not happen and i stumbled when it was too late already? thankfully, this incident happened and we eventually learned to change..to grow..i never studied and prayed this hard..so it was really God’s will to make me cross this winding road so that I may see Him better and feel his loving prescence which is there all along…nothing compares to it…
indeed,life is a mystery…you will never know what’s next..this may sound a cliche,but really, cheaters never win…i totally get it now..people may not understand me and may continue doing the "c" thing..but they could not really tell because they have not experienced what our batch has been through…the incident that eventually made us one..
trek the rocky road we have taken and then judge…
as i read that message to a friend which contains all the details of my much dreaded moments, i was just smiling ang laughing at myself on how "praning" i was then..i was worried and anxious in just about anything…now,i am more relaxed and at peace because i know deep in my heart that im doing wat is good, beautiful and true…
we will soon be capped as Servien Christi Mariae on december 9…this is the moment we’ve been waiting for..the culmination of our experiences in the portals of st paul..we all deserve this, i believe so…finally,this is it…
as i reminisce what i have gone through from the very first time i set foot on those grounds,i feel a tug in my heart..little did i know that I would undergo life’s striking little stuggles..those molded me to what i am now..little did i know that I would be what I am now…a person,a nurse…hazel…
(sigh..)
nov 28, 2006
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