not just another first day high..

• im officially back in school!!
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• we had our first day of classes yesterday in graduate school. (Can you believe it?! GRADUATE SCHOOL! feels weird, still..). last saturday was our general orientation in the Master of Nursing program. i can hardly believe i'm typing this. haha! this is a whole new different experience to me.

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• yesterday, i woke up very early at 6 am to be in school at 7. 6 is very early to me considering that my usual waking hours is between 8:30 to 10 in the morning since june 3. i have no choice but to pull my silly butt off my bed and take a shower, or a bucket of water shall i say, since neither of our shower or faucets are working since our water tank broke. We were supposed to be in school from 7am to 7pm. What a long day it is! But the first day was spent only on orientation of the course outline and instructions regarding our assignments, the rest of the hours were cut down to mere chikas, catching up on what has been, laughter and a little gossip in between. Ralp, jelai, stephen and i spent most of our time in a room by ourselves and just talking our way as we kill time to wait for the next classes.

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• we also got our ID's..feels so weird having MAN and not Nursing as placed in the ID.
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• and mind you, it was not only faces that had a big transformation..the graduate school program was another as well. it is a long way compared to what i was used to in college. (Again, it feels sooo weird to say this since it was only last March when it ended and it didn't feel long at all.) Back in "college", we are used to going to school everyday, showing up for exams and school works.

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• Now that we are on our way to earn a Master's degree, it is very much different. We only show up on saturdays and not even every saturday; only those saturdays wherein we have discussions and/or exams. we will only meet 3-4 times this semester. Assignments will be sent via email and submitted via email as well. What a long way it is, huh?

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• They call us "adult learners". Independent. I wanted to stick my tongue out in disgust! haha! i was never independent! i always needed a push. But then again, there are deadlines. And i will just have to pretend that those dates can scream at me whenever i am in lazy or super lazy mode. After all, i am one of the servien christi mariae; one of the one- day wonders! hehe..but with 4 subjects and 4 sets of assignments every week, how am i supposed to finish those things? Not to mention all of them needed one of the things i don't like to do--RESEARCH WORK. whew! this is tougher than i expected. by now, you may say, "who told you to take 12 units??!". haha..honestly, i just feel like it..hehehe..just taking advantage of the remaining times when i have the full weeks for months free...in short, being unemployed!!

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• WEIRD was the feeling of the day. Since our little stint last week when all of the graduate school students were asked to stand while being introduced, i am embarrassed. Embarrassed by the thought that we are the youngest of the brood and almost all of our classmates are our previous clinical instructors! aaahhh!!! i wanna get out of my skin last saturday when we had to stand then all eyes were on us. They may think, "wow..time flies. they're on graduate school now." or "what batch are they?" or "why are they here?"..hehehe! whatever! i am just silently saying that they should be more ashamed since they haven't got their masters when they were still young and vibrant as we are now.. bwahahaha! it's just to tone down the embarrassment thing..

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• and as i said, weird was the feeling of the day. we met or shall i say, discovered who our classmates are. they are nothing but our previous clinical instructors AGAIN. aaahh! can we get out of our skins, AGAIN? this felt soo weird being in one classroom with your "professor" as another one of your previous clinical instructors. The whole orientation sessions were full of hidden smiles and rambling thoughts. At times, i got lost for a second because a multitude of thoughts came rushing in my little brain.

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• People have this connotation of taking up a masters degree as something old people do or something you do in preparation to teach. Being surrounded by people older than you, people working in hospitals or have had hospital experience made me feel like a glass half empty instead of half full. my confidence level went down several notches. hehe..having been surrounded with clinical instructors as classmates is intimidating. Its like being a tin can in a sea of pearls; a bottle cap in a set of Harry Winston's.

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• but then again, a bottle cap is a classic. And a classic never fades..it is only reinvented but it served the same purpose. And it is always on top..hehehe..i have never thought to compare myself to a bottle cap. haha!but i guess this time, i need to tweak myself a little to give way to these challenges and in the end, finish the course with much enthusiasm and determination, if only i can get rid of my lazy butt..hehe! but i'll really try...

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• i went home tired but i don't know why since we hardly did something. maybe my body has to adjust again with all the hustle and bustle of student life after several months of being a couch potato. hehe..also, not to mention my finger hurts since my calluses are gone and there was nothing to cushion the pen!haha! although i had just written a few bullets just to look "scholarly" enough by not copying the whole thing. hehe! this is what i get from not writing and just typing for the longest time..anyway, these are just minors for the day..

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• the majors were the realization that i have to rise above my lazy self in order to do this. This will entail much determination and i hope i can develop the right discipline needed for this recent endeavor.

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• i'm pausing graduate school thoughts and tasks for now..gotta focus first on the things needed for the november board exam on the 29th and 30th..nong don and i had loads to do!