THE D-H PROFILE

• okay.. first of all, i wanna thank our fans for giving my site 72 hits as of now! yippee! haha! i was shocked to see THE number..its so d-h!

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• i wanna thank the D in D-H because probably, he contributed to the half of the 72! haha! my biggest fan...harhar..

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• i thought of doing a D-H profile..just for our "fans" to take a peek of how it is to be a D-H!

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• THE D-H PROFILE

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• Name: D-H
• Address: Quezon Southville, Hong Kong Venice(haha!)
• Contact Number: 72-4004273 (updated: (72)-123-68)
• Children, if any: Dhanzel ----->
• Joint Accounts: JT Bank- 550 (bankrupt with debt)
• NV Bank- 2000 (bankrupt with debt)
• TS Bank- 40 (still negotiable to a hundred)--- latest update: investor pulled out
• Favorite Number: 72
• Favorite Color: RED
• Favorite dessert: chocolate cake eaten with chopsticks
• Favorite drink: RED tea with hazelnut syrup
• Body Organ of choice: Liver
• Diseases: Hazydonia/ Donnydonia
• Medication Taken, if any: Glutathione double strength bolus!

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• On being questioned: "I really don't know."
• On being commanded: "Whatever makes 'em happy!"
• On Computations: 72
• On Costs: 40 pesos or 150 pesos
• On being useless: "Prankly, we don't care!"
• When being challenged: "Bring it on!"
• When being impatient or angry: "Prankly, we don't give a damn!"

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• Don't forget to keep posted for the last chapter of the trilogy! It will surely make your livers bleed red blood! Ours kinda did..

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For the meantime, please support our previous adventures. Just click the links below to read:

• THE D-H CHRONICLES: THE COASTER

• THE D-H CHRONICLES: THE PRANK

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• Have a RED Christmas everyone! We are surely having one blastin' RED one!

THE D-H CHRONICLES: THE PRANK

previously on the d-h chronicles:

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• nong don and i had our own share of team building, planning, as well as executing the plans for the board exam preparations..( we just really don't know how good, funny or bad we did it..hehe!)..anyway..the previous part ended at our last day..

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• this part of the story will start at the time our contracts are supposed to end...

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welcome to the D-H CHRONICLES: THE PRANK

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• november 30, noon time...

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• we talked it over (or rather we just gave ourselves "the look") if we shall be joining them for dinner and sleep there for one last night. so there..we decided to give them what they want..whatever makes 'em happy! harhar! (it has been days since people are "inviting" us to join their dinner party and we declined since "our contracts will end at nov 30, 1 pm" and that "sir, did not invite us and our stomachs were out of the budget" haha!)

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• but the catch was, let them assume that we're not going because we're already super tired; nong don with all the driving..and me with all the laughing..hehehe! dakilang drayber ni grace since day 1..hehe..nang kim did not bring her license when she was with us so nong don drove all throughout..hehe..so we went with our tasks to make sure that they ate, and got on the vans COMPLETE and safe..

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• we left the venue early that afternoon after the vans left. nang aica came with us. after we took a stop at THE Don's mansion, we zoomed off to holy rosary, calumpang. we chilled at the sofa and still putting on our tired faces and dramas, we told people that we can't come to dinner with them since "our contracts end at 1 pm and that we have 'extended' it until that night to make sure they get to the vans COMPLETE."

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• that afternoon, we kept reminding them to attend the mass before going to their dinner venue (which most of them don't know yet..surprise!)...and we kept telling them that we are just here to make sure that all of them went to mass, and got on the vans COMPLETE...some of them we're disappointed but did not care so much so it was easy for us to pull the trick.

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• we attended the mass with 'tired minds, tired souls' but we didn't sleep..hehe..after the mass, they boys kept bugging manong don that we should attend the party. louie got on his knees and said, "nong, attend gid kamo ya..miskan maluhod pa ko d."...some of the boys also had their own convincing prowess... "kun wala gd man kamo nainvite, kami na ga-invite sa inyo subong"....."ano number ni sir vargas? tawgan ta sya..para mapakadto kamo to"...."nong, kun ano gd man ya karon, magwa lang ta ya eh..dal-a si hazel..mapa uncle tom's ta..ilista lng kay nicholas nga ngalan!".....(hahaha!)by this time, nikki was already backing off a bit..hehe!

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• the girls also had their share with me..."ngaa indi kamo mag upod hw?"..and as usual, the reply was, "we'll just make sure that you ride the vans COMPLETE, then we're going home since we're tired already."...."sige na bala..upod na kamo..wala man na kaso ah.."..."mapuli gid kamo ya?"

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• even sir albances and sir pendon convinced us..but we can't...hihi!

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• ok so after the mass, we let them ride the vans then checked if how many of them are sleeping out. people in the vans kept asking us our "final decision"...and we just said, "people! dasiga nyo na! sakay na para kapuli na kami..."......"saka na sa vans kay kapoy na kami!"......"indi nyo na kami pagpahibi-a ni hazel..asta na lng diri contract namon"......."saka na..saka na!"

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• by this time, almost all of them said ther goodbyes, or so they thought!..people kept thanking us for the last times and waved goodbyes...

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• and also by this time, kai, chessa and jelai keep bugging us to go with them. i can feel it that they are going ballistic on us and that tears may flow soon..hehe..as i am busy making sure that they are going to the venue COMPLETE, i did not mind them much. but at the back of my mind, i was wondering where they are since i haven't noticed them in all the vans that i've checked. but i just said maybe they just kept quiet in the back seats since they dislike me at that moment.

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• after we let the vans go, we are almost ready to zoom off. BUT, as i turned my head, i saw three buttheads squatting at the side of Grace, manong don's car. oohhh! whaatt?!! they were there to trap us and beg us to go to dinner with them! the plan was just simple. make sure they ride the vans COMPLETE and we will just follow them at Esca's. done! but because of the three girls, we're screwed..BIG TIME!

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• i asked florence if the three could go with them since there's still space in her car. but thick skulled as they already are, they won't go with her. and so, we're left with three girls and one big trouble. nong don agreed to make them come with us but we will just drop them off at esca's. but the three are really pushy..they told sir albances that we are not coming. then sir told them "tistingan lang nila kun indi sila mag upod kay pani-paon ko gid sila." hehe..

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• so, i went upstairs to "mock pack" my things to appear realistic..i just closed the zipper of my bags then placed my laundry inside so it would look full...sneaky, eh?! but of course, messy as i am, i still have a lot of thigs left in my room..while i was "mock packing", the three knocked at nong don's room to beg him..he just turned his back around. little did hey know that he is concealing his laughter since his lips are starting to tremble with hidden smiles! haha! then nong don shouted, "hazel! dasiga na..lakat na ta!"...so here i am, gathering my bags ,which was almost empty, and hurriedly going down.

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• while we were packing, sir albances told the girls to come with them so that it will be easy for all of us. kai just gave him a snob then walked out! hahaha!

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• ok..so here we are with our bags and all...poor don..he packed all his things since the girls are looking at him the whole time..hehehe! we placed out things in the car then told them the real, or rather REEL reason that we're not coming...we told them that we had a trouble with sir vargas regarding our tasks..then nong don bursted: "may tubig pa to nga nabilin sa likod ho!"..then i went:"ano nga tubig?" (it was so imromptu that i did not get the "script" in the first place..hehe) then we started mocking a mini fight/ trouble scene..hihihi!

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• we just gave the girls straight, tired faces..then we 'ordered' them to just go in the car after much trouble..nong don went back just to inform the people there that we're going out and leaving already..when...WHEN...he saw Rodin at the door, looking like he has no problem at all! what happened to COMPLETE???!!! waaahhh! all the vans have gone out already and he was left there! he was late because he took a bath..ugh! what if manong did not go back anymore and we left? what will he do???!!! (if you're a fan of the D-H Chronicles, you'll know the answer..)

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• our irk level just went up a whole new level! "haze! may mas dako pa d sa problema ta ho?!"..hehehe! we hurriedly made him go inside the car since "we can't wait to go home because we're tired already"...

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• as we leave holy rosary..the car was quiet..i could sense chessa crying out of disappointment..nag sunggod sya! hehe...then rodin asked her, "ches, nasip-on ka?"....hahahahaha! i cannot fathom the depth of which i controlled my laughter! hahaha! its good that it's dark in the car, so my smiles can't be noticed..hahaha

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• we just diverted the topic and talked about fun stuffs just to ease the horror. hehe..then nong don passed me his cell telling me to inform van #1 that we have an additional four heads in the car. wen i turned it up, it said.."hala haze..kulbaan ko basi magsunggod sila.." then i just replied with ease and passed it over to him again.."indi na ah..makadto man ta gyapon..hehe! si chessa lang ang kululbaan..hehehe"...

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• by this time, no one contacted Rodin wondering where he went..and he still maintained the no-problem-in-this-world-can-affect-me disposition..no wonder why..he already knew the venue of their dinner party..hehe..but still, what will he do if we were already gone?? we honestly really don't know!

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• so there we go..cutting the tension in the car with laughter..and when we were near, we planned to eat at chowking..decoy! harhar! we dropped them off then said goodbye..i even signaled jelai to ease chessa out...the second after they closed the door, we BURSTED to laughter and more laughter for like a minute! hahahaha! soo funny....

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• they came in at Esca's looking like a bunch of non-board passers attending a victory party while we laugh outside..hehehe..peace!

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• we parked and stepped out of the car minutes later..nong don and i looked like silly bandits outside the restaurant looking ahead and observing them..we went in after the prayer and when people have mostly SETTLED DOWN.

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• when we went in, the girls gave us "the look"..haha! they could not believe we lured them into a false world! hahaha! well, whatever makes 'em happy!

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• i also saw mother queen there..she was also happy to see us and thanked us for our efforts..we took a picture wherein she carried me in her arms! hehe!the three bachelors were also there...

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• and while everybody looked fabulous, i look like a rag doll..hahaha! we haven't prepared much because of all these troubles..and we were really super tired!

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• so ok...this is the story of how we got our oscar awards...care for another one?

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• keep posted for the last leg of the D-H CHRONICLES!

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• enjoy!!! leave some love and comments!

THE D-H CHRONICLES: THE COASTER

ok..so this is part one of the D-H TRILOGY..hehehe!

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• two to three weeks before the november 2008 board exams, we started to plan out things needed for the preparation. Manong Don and I sort of spearheaded the team composed of only the two of us. (duh! what team?!) We spent hours over the weeks planning and only planning..hahaha! Aahh..Potential energy at its best! before we knew it, we only got one week left, 550 pesos and only the two of us, still. (haha!)

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• ok..so we got them scapulars as gift from the june takers..i also asked daphne for a video message and i made a letter for them, edited by nong don(added the last line) and marian (spelling and grammar).hahaha! and i thought they would edit the content! grr..nevertheless, we had the two..now what? "we really don't know"..it has been days that the question (and the answer) remained the same. "what shall we do with these? when will we have it blessed? when will we give this to them? what part of the program?" hehehe..the answer? "i really don't know." we just went with the flow and at long last, we found some slots in the mass and program wherein we can insert our so called gifts. and to think that we planned for nothing since the original plan to give it together in the tribute was not followed at all! harhar.. oh well, it's because the mass on the first day was canceled and we haven't had the scapulars blessed so we can't give it on the tribute scheduled the next day...huhu..

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• anyway, since the mass was canceled, we had nothing to do. i went up to the room of the royalty girls to rest and have some chika. came lunch time, nong don and company invited me to go with them at allan's to have talabas. lucky me, i was feeling lazy that time so i did not go. boy! how lucky can one get..hahaha! they went back with sick stomachs! haha..amalia can't contain it..hehe..nong don may have a late reaction but still.. you can't ignore the toilet..hahaha! peace! that afternoon, we asked permission if we can sleep there that tuesday since the tribute program will be ending late and that we can help sir vargas with the preparations. we also had some chika with sir vargas..funny moments..tsk tsk! not to mention ms timay has one too..but she just told us she has one then she took her bag then got off to start her session with the reviewees. it left us with open mouths..hehe! until now, "we really don't know" what that chika is.

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• the following day was the tribute program for the november takers. with nong don's sick stomach, i went to pick up the decors at the PNSO office at school. "may ginto sa dulo ng bahaghari" sh*t! buki buki!!! people will surely laugh at that if that will be the title of the program and the theme is "dyosa". i asked them if they have newspapers and long extension cords. the answer was none. GGRRR! they also told me that instead of tealights, they bought the long white candle type. they plan to make paper lanterns with tealights inside brown paperbags. and since they brought the wrong candles, they plan to stick it upright in the ground...WHAT?!? STUPID..Grr to the max!!!! by this time, we are quite furious with them. they can't give us their definite plans..and they sort of get in the way..hehe..and also by this time, our team is still composed of two..hehe!

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• and so i went to school to meet him there and to get the fireworks. lucky us, shirley and tonet was able to join. yipee! 4 na kami..hehe..we went to holy rosary to fix the session hall for the tribute. i felt sick to my stomach in thinking of what to do with the cheapy decors. i just followed my gut and made it look presentable. (eew) and to think we covered the windows and doors with newspapers for them not to see the decors! what's there to see anyway?!

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• early that night, the pnso came in already.. so we went out to eat dinner since no fastfood in town delivers past 6! grr...what irritated us is the fact that there are a lot of them but most of them just roamed around the room with nothing to do. tirik lang nga tirik..and they are in this unbelievable high level of stress for just a simple, simple event which in most parts, we already took care of. as the event started, i went out to check the set up outside. i noticed that there is no stereo there. so i asked them if they have one out already..guess what? no one bothered to place one outside!!! *@!#*....! hay naku...nevertheless, the program went well..the speeches were funny..ms timay, ross, jeff, virgil, powie, nong don, sir pendon and sir albances..and of course, and nag-iisang dyosa..reyven! who by the way, cannot be contacted for a live phone patch and we played the recorded version in behalf.

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• i enjoyed the program. i joined the november takers up the grotto during the closing prayer. and when we sang our batch song, i can't help but think of the june takers who is just down behind me. i wanna hug both worlds! i am in between groups who matter to me and who journeyed with me towards what i am now. this made me teary eyed. but at the end, our efforts are still worth it. one down for the team!

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• after the fireworks, we all hugged each other and said our good lucks. nong don n i went to chowking to grab some food after dropping nang ping2 and maan home and also evil ian at his drop off point. we also saw the pnso there at chowking..they are still meeting for the nurses week at 11 in the evening. another, what?! we went back at holy rosary and "with tired minds, tired souls, we slept"..hehe..(another OTH episode title)..

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• the following morning, i discovered that my super long extension cord was gone. nong don's scissors was also nowhere in sight. the maintenance personnel said that he saw the pnso keeping them. darn! and until now, they are not allegedly with them..is this karma or what?!

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• we went home that morning since we have nothing to do there. i ached because of two things: my body is tired for all the hullaballos and anxiety auras from the reviewees and most of all, i can't get to watch Twilight on the first day!!! and so i rested the whole afternoon, and when i logged on the internet, it's timely that i received a txt from nong don. they watched twilight and that he fell asleep! hahaha! at that time, i was thinking to rush and watch the movie but im still a bit tired and dumbfounded so i just stayed logged on and answered inquiries from my online shop.

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• later that afternoon, i caught up with nang kim in YM and we chatted about our usual stuffs. then nong don and i came up with a decision to sleep there again that night until it is all over. so off we go..people got surprised that we are there, again..hehe! by this time, the teasing started, little did they know...its the d-h chronicles! (ahem! shh..)

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• the next day, they had their mass intention. in the afternoon, nong don & i went to do some errands for the board exam. we planned to buy DRINKS, cups, candies and garbage bags and also to order their snacks at jollibee. we decided to buy 72 bottles of softrinks for 3 meals, 99 stomachs.. don't ask us how the hell did we compute this number! "we really don't know!" 2 brown heads and 1 "red" head.. dumb, dumber and dumberer..hihihi! as we divided the bottles according to the number of students per venue (which as stupid as we are, we did this on the next day), we noticed that we are short of drinks..super short! (pls don't ask why..u know the answer)..and so, we found ourselves the next day in makro buying additional drinks as we rush to the different venues.

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• so came the next day..November 29; first day of the board exams.

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• i woke up feeling nostalgic. i remember our time when we took the boards; from the red underwear to the CHN uniforms and the prayer. i was also in my red underwear that day..hehe!

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• we plotted our "iterinary" the night before as we have a lot of stop overs to go. after the prayer (which i cried in), nong don and i hurried to see the coaster! turns out its just a tourist bus. haha! we are so manol!! we took a picture with franz and pearl at the coaster..but its just not us who doesn't know what a coaster is.. we tried to ask everybody what a coaster is just to prove to sir vargas that we are not the only coaster manols in town..hahaha!

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• we haven't reached noon yet but our heads are already aching and/or spinning! we went to molo city high then to makro then drop the drinks at the venues then to dunkin iznart..whew! that was just around 10 in the morning and we are already in "grr mode"..hehe! not to mention, our volunteers are bugging us! nevertheless, we still went on with our jobs, picking up the foods then dropping them to the venues.

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• we had lunch at jollibee together with nang kim and nang debbie, our "team" for the day..hehe! we stayed there to cool off and chatted until we got a call from sir. he was ready to pick up the jolly hotdogs we ordered the other day. it took us around 15-20 minutes to wait for the transaction of our order and it ended up being changed. why? i really dont know..hehe..no, no...this time i know..haha! they weren't able to fix 110 jolly hotdogs. they only have 3..so sir vargas went @#!..hihihi...we all went nuts, i mean!red nuts..hahaha! (ok i'm talking crap for those who don't know what "red" is)..the end thing? we changed the jolly hotdogs to cheeseburgers then the van took it to holy rosary since we had no time left. they took their snacks there. we went grocery shopping for drinks again..

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• we arrived there "with tired minds, tired souls, we slept" at the sofa..hehe! we didn't care if people are so noisy discussing board exam questions and teasing us there. were tired! not long after, i got up..and not long after, nong don got up because i did and the sofa moved..hehe.peace!!

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• that night, we ate our dinner. after eating, we chatted a bit on the table and i wondered why manong passed his phone to me. hay! he saw something red! hahahaha! i cannot stop smiling until now..hehe! that night, we did not join the night prayer to do some inventories of our supplies. and when i went up to get something, i was still smiling because of the "red", and while i was getting up the stairs, i saw the "red"..hahahaha! i just bit my lip, stepped aside and ran! hehehe!

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• the stepping and running reminded me of one D-H thingy...the other day, nong don went up with me to the rooms since it was bell time..so we went up then he started singing..ting aling..aling ding dong..tingaling aling aling ding dong..then i joined him...tingaling ngaling...tingaling ngaling...after which, we bursted into banging laughter..hahaha! little did we know, a nun was at the prayer room beside the stairs! hahaha! so we just zipped our loud mouths, stepped aside and RAN! haha...

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• going back , we finished the inventory fast so that we can watch the beautician and the beast. while the girls are reviewing or sleeping, we are all watching the film..hehe..then we snoozed!

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• and oh, my cell phone had gone tired ahead of me the whole day! haha..i had only one bar left of my battery after lunch but it was still alive until late night..hehe! how i wish i had that energy! darn, non-living things! hehe..

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November 30, last day of our contract:

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• we went with our usual routine..but this day, i got up the coaster to see how it is inside and took a picture there..hehehe! (ble! nong don! ble!)

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• We thought this day would be lighter since the exams will only take half of the day..we went to molo city high first to see if the volunteers are there. (why can't they be like the volunteers in national high school? no problem at all!) then we took a short nap and went to makro AGAIN! we bought water and candies...after that, we visited national HS, prayed the rosary there and went to UI..took a rest then zoomed to shakey's.

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• darn shakeys! it took us a long time to wait for the orders of "special diet for special people". 30 minutes for 3 special diet for 3 special people with 3 special needs on 3 different venues! wahaha! darn rest! hehe..this is the start of systems bug down! hehe..

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• as we got the orders, we rushed to the different venues then dropped the special diet. we went back to st maria kinder hall to eat lunch. we ate our dessert first..hehe! yummy chocolate cake. nong don & i used the chopsticks to eat the cake when in fact its supposed to be used as slicer..oh well! we really don't know!

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• as we ate lunch, sir vargas called..hehehe..he told us not to come to sm city anymore since we are still having our lunch..hehe..so we just stayed there and rested until the examinees were done..

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• when the day was over, we just said that we can't attend their dinner party anymore since were already tired and our contract ends at 1 pm with extension until all is settled and in the vans which would take then to their dinner party..

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little did they know some of them are in for a roller "coaster" ride...hehehe

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stay tuned for the next part: THE D-H CHRONICLES: THE PRANK ->(click link)

not just another first day high..

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• we had our first day of classes yesterday in graduate school. (Can you believe it?! GRADUATE SCHOOL! feels weird, still..). last saturday was our general orientation in the Master of Nursing program. i can hardly believe i'm typing this. haha! this is a whole new different experience to me.

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• yesterday, i woke up very early at 6 am to be in school at 7. 6 is very early to me considering that my usual waking hours is between 8:30 to 10 in the morning since june 3. i have no choice but to pull my silly butt off my bed and take a shower, or a bucket of water shall i say, since neither of our shower or faucets are working since our water tank broke. We were supposed to be in school from 7am to 7pm. What a long day it is! But the first day was spent only on orientation of the course outline and instructions regarding our assignments, the rest of the hours were cut down to mere chikas, catching up on what has been, laughter and a little gossip in between. Ralp, jelai, stephen and i spent most of our time in a room by ourselves and just talking our way as we kill time to wait for the next classes.

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• we also got our ID's..feels so weird having MAN and not Nursing as placed in the ID.
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• and mind you, it was not only faces that had a big transformation..the graduate school program was another as well. it is a long way compared to what i was used to in college. (Again, it feels sooo weird to say this since it was only last March when it ended and it didn't feel long at all.) Back in "college", we are used to going to school everyday, showing up for exams and school works.

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• Now that we are on our way to earn a Master's degree, it is very much different. We only show up on saturdays and not even every saturday; only those saturdays wherein we have discussions and/or exams. we will only meet 3-4 times this semester. Assignments will be sent via email and submitted via email as well. What a long way it is, huh?

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• They call us "adult learners". Independent. I wanted to stick my tongue out in disgust! haha! i was never independent! i always needed a push. But then again, there are deadlines. And i will just have to pretend that those dates can scream at me whenever i am in lazy or super lazy mode. After all, i am one of the servien christi mariae; one of the one- day wonders! hehe..but with 4 subjects and 4 sets of assignments every week, how am i supposed to finish those things? Not to mention all of them needed one of the things i don't like to do--RESEARCH WORK. whew! this is tougher than i expected. by now, you may say, "who told you to take 12 units??!". haha..honestly, i just feel like it..hehehe..just taking advantage of the remaining times when i have the full weeks for months free...in short, being unemployed!!

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• WEIRD was the feeling of the day. Since our little stint last week when all of the graduate school students were asked to stand while being introduced, i am embarrassed. Embarrassed by the thought that we are the youngest of the brood and almost all of our classmates are our previous clinical instructors! aaahhh!!! i wanna get out of my skin last saturday when we had to stand then all eyes were on us. They may think, "wow..time flies. they're on graduate school now." or "what batch are they?" or "why are they here?"..hehehe! whatever! i am just silently saying that they should be more ashamed since they haven't got their masters when they were still young and vibrant as we are now.. bwahahaha! it's just to tone down the embarrassment thing..

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• and as i said, weird was the feeling of the day. we met or shall i say, discovered who our classmates are. they are nothing but our previous clinical instructors AGAIN. aaahh! can we get out of our skins, AGAIN? this felt soo weird being in one classroom with your "professor" as another one of your previous clinical instructors. The whole orientation sessions were full of hidden smiles and rambling thoughts. At times, i got lost for a second because a multitude of thoughts came rushing in my little brain.

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• People have this connotation of taking up a masters degree as something old people do or something you do in preparation to teach. Being surrounded by people older than you, people working in hospitals or have had hospital experience made me feel like a glass half empty instead of half full. my confidence level went down several notches. hehe..having been surrounded with clinical instructors as classmates is intimidating. Its like being a tin can in a sea of pearls; a bottle cap in a set of Harry Winston's.

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• but then again, a bottle cap is a classic. And a classic never fades..it is only reinvented but it served the same purpose. And it is always on top..hehehe..i have never thought to compare myself to a bottle cap. haha!but i guess this time, i need to tweak myself a little to give way to these challenges and in the end, finish the course with much enthusiasm and determination, if only i can get rid of my lazy butt..hehe! but i'll really try...

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• i went home tired but i don't know why since we hardly did something. maybe my body has to adjust again with all the hustle and bustle of student life after several months of being a couch potato. hehe..also, not to mention my finger hurts since my calluses are gone and there was nothing to cushion the pen!haha! although i had just written a few bullets just to look "scholarly" enough by not copying the whole thing. hehe! this is what i get from not writing and just typing for the longest time..anyway, these are just minors for the day..

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• the majors were the realization that i have to rise above my lazy self in order to do this. This will entail much determination and i hope i can develop the right discipline needed for this recent endeavor.

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application essay for graduate school

this was my application essay submitted to the program chair of the graduate school, who is Mother Queen, of course..hehe..

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At first i was submitted 2 sentences but she turned it down and quipped that it has to be 500-word essay. how am i supposed to fit a 500-word essay into a little space in the application form?hehe...peace! nevertheless, here it goes...

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Over the years, the number of Filipino nurses has increased to more than what people can place on their dinner tables, reflecting our economy and obviously, to more than what our hospitals need. Given this scenario, it is very challenging for a beginner to penetrate easily in the vast world that is 21^st century Nursing.

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As a neophyte nurse myself, this pose a great challenge for me to practice the profession as it should be, when fused along with the demands of modernization. Thus, the desire to pursue higher education and be a Master’s degree holder became a demand. I believe going to post graduate studies will enhance me as a professional, where continuing education is valued and a part of every step. It will further equip me with what I need to face the battle and in the end emerge to be on top.

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Working in the health care field is and will never be a joke. The clients need the care and service that they deserve. I consider pursuing higher education in Nursing as one way to give the best and all that you can be to deliver the care that each client ought to have. Also, having a Master’s degree early in practicing the profession will help me maximize its use. It will be deemed useful and beneficial as I take on my professional endeavors.

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Earning a Master’s degree will also enable to me to work as a specialist in the field of Nursing. I decided on Medical Surgical Nursing as my major. I believe that it will enhance my knowledge on patient care. It will further assist me as I work in hospitals and face different clients with various health care needs.

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Seeking higher education will also prepare me better for what lies ahead. As Jared Weiss, a life coach, once said, you cannot control how you are perceived; you can only control how you are presented. In five years time, I would want to present myself as a professional nurse having a job suited to fit my values and expertise. By then, I have touched many lives and those same lives will benefit with what I have added to my credentials more than myself. At the same time that I have set my professional career at a jump start, I would also be helping my family. It will only be then that I can say that this will all be worth it.

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Seeing the trend in nursing nowadays, it comes to a conclusion where you have to strive hard to be at par with others. There is no surer way to get to the top. Waiting for a falling star will take eternity. What is sure now is to find means on how to reach a single star for you to get a close view of the whole constellation. By then, you can start reaching for another one.

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I believe there will always be a place for me at the top and pursuing higher education in Nursing will take me to a step to attain my own star.

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By the way, this essay made me a slave to the mother queen..haha! She liked this and made me write a speech for her for a leadership event..toink!

great TV tuesday!

• one tree hill season 6 episode 11 and gossip girl season 2 episode 11 are sooo great!!

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• i love GG's episode today. it was very sad for me towards the end. i cried again! the episode pointed out the best of families and traditions. I'm glad all of them were back to normal or whatever they used to be. sometimes, it can be hard for people to think that they can be "ordinary and plain" amidst the glitters that are Chanel and Manolos. This time, the episode takes us back to what it used to be "last year" where things are a little bit messed up. i love this episode! so heartwarming..makes me look forward to christmas..and it makes me feel, no, not feel, but imagine the cool new york air..how i wish i can feel it right now,here in the philippines. (sigh)

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• About one tree hill, my favorite show by far if u haven't known yet, this episode takes me back to the previous seasons as the screenplay takes it to the 1940's. This was written by chad michael murray. and i think it was very creative of him but i gotta say, the resident writers still gets my vote! hehe..a couple of lines can get detached from the whole scene as the scene can get dissociated with the whole episode. like when peyton in blue gown shouts that she needs love, freedom, etc. then twirls around. that was quite a bit cheesy, don't 'ya think?! but hands down to the naley scenes! whoot, whoot! naley scenes never fails to tear me up! hehe..especialy the "always and forever" part. i also love the fact that they have incorporated some tidbits and lines from the previous season, like the part where haley said that the rain made her stay in tree hill. It was actually raining when nathan first proposed to her.

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• This is one of those those-were-the-days-when episodes wherein you wouldn't get it if you are not a fan. hehe.. i love their dresses and make up and of course the set! i always had a fascination of things that are old and vintage. and when i learned that this week's episode would be set in 1940's, i was surprised, intrigued and very happy at the same time! mixed feelings..hehe! i was also looking forward for the episode that chad wrote so when i learned that it's also this one, it made my excitement overflow! i am such a one tree hill addict that i can ramble about it all day!!

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• it's good that they have just signed in for a seventh season because i can barely live without one tree hill! it feeds my mind and soul with so much things that lets me reflect on what i am.

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• AAH! I LOVE ONE TREE HILL, I HEART ONE TREE HILL!!

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• i just can't LEAVE one tree hill...xoxo!!

plain dumb NOTHING.

• i have been a bore for the past months since i was declared a "professional". I am not even fit to be called one since i don't function as one at all. Nothing's been going on except for the ramblings of my troubled mind,the hullabaloos of my online shop and what's going on between Lucas Scott, Peyton Sawyer, Serena-Dan and the Chuck-Blair thingy every TV tuesdays. (btw, i declared every tuesday as TV tuesdays since i watch my fave shows, shows that feed my mind and soul, every tuesdays.)

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• Back to the point (of no return), everybody seems so busy and eager to get their careers to a jump start; reviewing for international exams, going to job fairs and even applying for a job at a couple of hospitals. It sometimes frustrates me how indecisive i am when it comes to these things. Until this day, i don't have a clear timetable of what should i do. This is bad. Considering the fate of nurses nowadays, i consider myself last in line, a slow put; a lazy bum! I should have taken steps to get my lazy butt up to practice what i call my "profession" ages ago. I don't know what holds me back so much. But definitely one of the reasons is that i don't have a buddy to hold on to as i take these necessary steps. what if i had bad balance after all? i am afraid to fall down, most of all, i'm afraid to fall on my own.

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• At times, i get really sad when no one updates me with what's up and about. at times, i feel like people don't even care that i am also needing infos. yes, no one's closer to me than queencie alone among the june takers and she's gone to Med school. maybe this is why i am the last to know. (why do "people always leave"? grr! peyton help me.) i don't blame them for anything. of course you would tend to stick on your own cliques first before going out of the bubble. sometimes, i also tend to do so. it's just depressing that i am alone now.

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• i really don't know what to do. people keep on asking me what i do or what plans i have. i just tend to smile and say that i will review for nclex. but i'm not really sure when. i have not even applied for eligibility yet. and at times, i refuse to open the site of the california board of nursing.and until now, i haven't opened it yet. this takes me back to the summer of 2004 wherein i haven't decided what to take up in college until the month of may. i used to fake sleep just to get out of bed late and eat my meals earlier than everybody so that i can avoid "the talk". it's not that i don't want this to happen. maybe i'm still waiting for me to be ready; to be ready to finally face what it takes to grow up. Growing up sucks! and most of all, i want a buddy. i always pray that the Lord will help me take the right path and make right decisions and i believe he is leading me through it. i just need to embrace His will fully.

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• the november takers are about to take their boards in two weeks time. hopefully, jelai would want to accompany me in my plans if they are through. i am rooting for that hope left. that could be my only hope since kai plans to take up dentistry and chessa wants to work first. i on the other hand want to take all exams first before proceeding to work. that is my only plan now.

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• for the meantime, i am waiting for december 24 and 25 to finish my iv therapy completion requirements. i'm sure i'll be blogging about this unique christmas! i also enrolled myself in graduate school for a master's degree together with ralp, jelai and stephen.

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• i am never really good with short term goals. i always see myself in the far distant future. i want to work in california, but i don't know where to start. i do all this inquiry to those who have applied for eligibility but i end up doing nothing. No application, no review. I even have no school documents on hand since my thesis was stuck with my research adviser. she is on leave. i didn't even know if she really got it since i just asked the girls to give it to her. all i need is her signature for approval. aarrgh! this is so i-dont-know-what-to-call-so-i-just-scream!

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• As of the moment, this is it. plain dumb nothingness.

of internet and whatnots

• after i became one of them, or shall i say, another unemployed nurse, the world has left me nothing to do but sulk in the wonder that is INTERNET!

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• the internet continues to amaze me. i have been an internet user for over 5-6 years now. Quite a little number, but i can tell that it has just got blew me away!

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• a couple of months ago, i've started to unravel the world of online shopping via Multiply, a supposed social networking site which for me, is a haven of online goodies! From,tops, dresses, bottoms, to books and accessories to even cupcakes! too bad they can't ship those yummylicious cupcakes to iloilo. I have yet to try them. but recently, i came upon a site where choco crispies in different flavors are sold and they also ship anywhere! thinking of it for christmas gifts.. hehe!if, that leaves me enough money on my Gcash account. haha!

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• After a couple of months looking around temptation, i decided to open an online shop myself. it is for the purpose of getting extra cash since my allowance was cut off since ages ago, and what was left in my wallet was not very well cooperating. so, i became another one of them, internet sellers! yippee!

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• online shopping became even more fun by then. having my own gcash account made it even more easier to pay and be paid. no cash on hand, just digits on a globe SIM.

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• online selling paid me 1420 on the first month. and at the same time, i splurged on 1480 worth of books on ebay, the twilight saga series by stephenie meyer. How's that for bankruptcy!

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• as for the 60 pesos balance, lucky me a buyer will be cashing in the next day. so what i did was deposit 1000 for the books so that i can assure the seller that the books will be for me, and only me!hehe..and also to assure myself that those books are not going anywhere. so the next day, i closed the payment with an additional 480 pesos. the items were shipped right away and came in the next day even if it's a holiday. after a long day of iv therapy training, those books lit me up as well as my firends' since we will be practicing some demos at my house when i opened the package.

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• before having the tangible books, i came upon the e-book. i never ever thought that i can read books in the internet knowing my preference of a tangible book with neat covers, no dents, no yellow pages and especially no lines on the books spine! but through twilight, i discovered something new. i came upon the e-book and audio book, although the audio book can definitely put you to slumberland. i read the first 2 books through e-book.

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• now i can really conclude that you can live with internet alone plus a bathroom and a shelter. the internet can dress you up in any occasion, can feed you and can give you limitless recreation. wow.

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• another internet splurge is the downloadables! i downloaded many movies and almost every episode of one tree hill and gossip girl. i just stopped now with my series downloads since it's crowding my computer space. i just watch it on you tube or surfthechannel.com every tuesdays. what's fun is that you can download hard to find movies; movies that i grew up to as a child that i cannot see now in any channel and definitely nowhere in video shops.

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• i may sound off and queer but this is so much fum for me, especially when you've got nothing to do, when all your friends are reviewing for the board exam or some international exams, or taking up another course. the internet makes me sane now. it keeps me company as i decide on what to take on now.

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• plus, it doesn't hurt when a staff from GMA-7's mel and joey orders from you (it was later cancelled though) to be used for an episode and an inquirer reporter emails you for an interview! (though i got to answer it a week later since i haven't checked the email address of my YM account. grr). oh well, what's a close shot to fame than nothing at all?!

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• my multiply site: http://bubblescrub.multiply.com

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these are the list of trusted sellers on multiply (i purchased from most of them):

• http://theafrodiety.multiply.com --- where i made my first purchase
• http://sugarsprinkles.multiply.com --- tops and dresses
• http://pasawayandcompany.multiply.com -- tops and dresses
• http://graffities.multiply.com -- unique accessories
• http://viabella.multiply.com -- personalized accessories
• http://oneliners.multiply.com --shirts
• http://sarisaribookstore.multiply.com -- books
• http://getdizlook.multiply.com --tops, bottoms, shoes
• http://vettievet.multiply.com -- my highschool classmate, nikki's sisters's site, clay accessories
• http://comfyandcute.multiply.com -- my cousin's site

from bridesmade to beach babe

August 19, 2008; 12:41 pm At my desk

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Just had my lunch. (cough! cough!) hay..i’ve been snoozing all day for 2 days now. I’m sick! Ginapatulog gid ko ya sang neozep. Right now, daw ok na gawa since I’ve switched meds yesterday. I also had my first dose of HPV vaccine yesterday. My flu has improved but I think gasugod na ang cough. nagulpihan lang ko guro since I barely had any rest last week.

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Last Friday I attended my cousin’s wedding. I was one of her bridesmaids (dress#1 and counting…) I remembered 27 dresses while the whole thing was going on. From the look of the groom while the bride is walking to the 27 dresses themselves. it was a nice wedding. Everybody thought we would all cry but thank god the speeches were just light to the ears, and eyes! I for once looovve weddings and I even cry during one. Well, being a drama queen doesn’t come from my experiences but it runs in the entire family blood! Bingit kami tanan, in short.

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It’s really good to see a wedding wherein you really know the couple and had witnessed their relationship even for a short time. Being here in Iloilo doesn’t allow me to spend most of my time with them. But it was my first time to attend a wedding where I really feel close and i really enjoyed my time and not just barely imagining myself as the bride.

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I came home Sunday afternoon just in time to unpack then pack anew for our boracay trip the next day. Nagpuli lang ko di para manghimos. No kidding. That is really the reason why I came home..hehe! I can go with them first trip on Monday galing la pa ko ka himos so nagpuli ko una.

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Boracay was fun! It was also modern and expensive. Hehe.. we were like a bunch of tourists on our oversized sunglasses and flip flops who do not know how to get about the island! Mga manol! The last time I was there was like 6-7 years ago. There was no port and the only way to get to station 2 is to ride a bangka then arrive on the beachfront itself. Now, we rode a fastcraft and arrived on a port where mini vans await to bring you to your destination. We even walked a block since the car can’t pass thru a street going to the beach. Hay, boracay! After 5 hours of travel, gutom2 na kami..hehe! we arrived at around 3:30. Anyways, I had fun with my cousins. Our second cousin from austrailia and his friend also came along with us. Kasadya sang friend ya kay daw na amaze gid sya sa mga little things that is so pinoy. Hehe! And oh! I love my name on aussie accent!! Lingaw gid ko ya sa conversations nila with all the aussie slangs! I just love accents! And one thing I also realized even when I was still in bacolod is that I can’t live without accessories. Daw matunaw ko if can’t wear one. Miskan relo lang na basta may gakabit sa wrist ko and/or my ears and/or my neck..hehe!

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Would you believe una pa ang crocs store sa boracay rather than in Iloilo? Hehe! Sosyal nga isla! Pro indi gid ta to kakadto without a handy parent..hehe..la may ma finance sa aton. Taga hulag mo bayad!

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I got cornrows there. We also went snorkeling. I am really mother nature’s baby ever since so I really, really love the wonders of nature that’s why I’ve always wanted to snorkel. Oh my! I can do that all day! One hour in the water is not enough for me to see those corals and swim with the little fishes. Nami2 gd ya!!! I was afraid at first that the fishes might nibble or bother me pro wala man..it’s as if ur swimming in a giant aquarium. It’s a must try!! Ma extend pa kami tani one day galling la man kaapas ang isa ko ka cousin so puli kami by Wednesday. BITIN!

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A little time off in bacolod and boracay is what’s best for me since I was feeling so alone in the last couple of weeks. It really sank into me when I came home after the 2h reunion. I literally cried to sleep because I was feeling some sort of this madness that I never imagined would hit like this.

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I was in a people-always-leave mode. Alone. Lonely. Subo. I was questioning myself what am I doing why people always leave when I get so attached to them? I know it’s not my fault but I just don’t know why it always happens. Only this time, the leaving is not total. I just feel alone. La ko d upod sa balay and whenever I wanted to go out, sin-o updon ko? Wala gyapon.

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I just missed those times badly when queencie & I are going on reviews while I can still say hello to the rest of the world. Right now, ako naman bilin sa tabtaban. Hehe. Ga-ileskwela sila tanan. Ako ya ga couch potato. At least all of them have companies that is so close to the servien spirit. Ako ya? Yab-ok pirme tubang ko di.

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I just feel nga daw la gid ko ya upod. Wala man may gatxt sa akon. Chat lang eh.. kami ni nang kim last tym halos everyday kag kis-a c flora. The fact that la ko upod mag pa PRC or other professional matters makes me feel more like a “loner”. Feeling ko ako nlng gapangita kun sin-o updon ko. But still, the fact that you’re in doesn’t mean you’re accepted. or you belong. May lain man na cla ya nga world after this. Nagpahagad nlng ko gani kay nang kim last time if they have plans for nclex review kay feeling ko lumutan lang ko d la my masapak sa akon.

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Maybe, just maybe, this is one of the reasons why I don’t want friends to take a second course. So that we could trek the road together?? Ambot. Nag tuhaw mlng sa conscious mind ko one time. Pro indi guro ah. Super evil na ya for me to become possessive. Hehe…it’s really the additional studying that so eew! I love learning but I never liked studying.

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Sometimes I think that what if it’s my time to “leave”? will I be of a greater loss??

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You see, this is why I don’t want to be hard on myself because I can get pretty nasty and I could affect my own esteem. I am a very reflective person but sometimes, its just too much nga ga buangit na ko. I guess I just need some social time and cut off some alone time with me, myself and i.

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As I reflect on this, being alone and left alone is also a reason my I want a boyfriend. It may sound silly for me saying this and I feel silly saying this but I know I want to have one. I am quite confident of my needs, wants and desires and I think a love life is the missing piece. It has been 20 long years pro wala gid gya gyapon. Not even a speck of dust in the whitest paper. I know I’m still young and only time can tell but I’m starting to think that love won’t happen. No one had ever courted nor noticed me. Miskan pabatyag mlng wala gd. Mayo na ya ang iban nga NBSB since ila gd ya decision not to have one even if a queue of boys is waiting. They could really have one. All they have to say is yes. Ako ya? Alone in the dark… alangan mamakal ko laki? Eew. Not that desperate!

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It may seem a joke pro I just want someone who would be my bestest best friend who would never leave. I just want someone who could cheer me up and give me company. Some would say that I have family and friends who would. I know that. But it’s not forever that they could perk me up. And, I just can’t imagine being an old maid and dying a virgin. Hahaha!!

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For so long, I wanted my life to be patterned on movies and novels. I always wanted to be the girl who got the perfect man and live the best life. I wanted “something wonderful.” This made me very idealistic and cynical on almost everything. This might be the reason why at times I refuse to believe that this is how the world goes; this is what love is now as opposed to the medieval times. By know, u have known that I have high standards for life itself that’s why u always caught me complaining. Hehe. I am always envious of people who have found love while I lie blank.

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I am not in a hurry since I have only been ready for only a short time now. But what plays in my mind is the dreaded “what ifs”. What if no one will ever show me love and what it’s all about? What if I’ll never have my perfect man and live the best life? What if there is no “something wonderful”?

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Let’s face the fact that I am unattractive and/or intimidating. And unlucky me, Shallow Hals outnumber Lucas Scotts or Dan Humphreys. I am starting to get hard on myself and I don’t want this to go further. It may seem like my bestfriends are the hotties and I’m the nottie. (you see how movies get to me?! Hehe) No one could blame me for being hard on myself. I am in a worse scenario. I am starting to enter the life of a single woman. Starting with chapter 1—people can’t stop to ask if u have a boyfriend. Chapter 2- always a bridesmaid never a bride. Chapter 3, anyone? Huhu..indi ko ya mag la-on!

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I believe in destiny, soulmates, serendipity and all things love but skeptical as me, will it ever happen in real life? Will my ideals transform into teeny bits of reality?

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People always ask when will the right man come along? as for me, the question remains the same, will just a guy ever come along??

what it means to finally get it

As it finally half-sank into my system, i rambled through the internet to find my name, now, as a nurse.

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# 25465 Te, Hazel Joy Uy

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• The first thing that came to my mind was to check if the spelling was correct. and it was! whew! as i looked at our passing percentage, sudden flashes of memory came into my mind. from our review sessions, to our night prayers to the boards itself. i can’t help myself from tears of joy. Our efforts finally paid off! our prayers were all answered.

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• I can’t stop looking at my name. It felt really good to see it right there. it never looked better. hehe! this is the real stat valv moment!

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• The feeling was just surreal. we needed this. and i know, we really deserved it. from the disaster that was junior year, who might think that we were able to bring the bang?! all those hurt and lessons learned paid off.

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• i am also happy that we did it because it was also for our clinical instructors. this is a gift to us as it is for them. speaking of gifts, i have 2 classmates who celebrated their birthday during the release of the result. what a great gift to franz and kenndy!

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• it is really the four years of foundation and hard work that brought us here and not one review center can ever say that they were the ones who made the students pass the boards. we didn’t get any review center but we all passed. we didn’t get one because it was expensive. we will pay twice the fee of the review and in-house package without the review center if we will get one. We got individual reviewers from manila for some subjects but it was really our clinical instructors who built the bulk of what we knew.

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• it was then that i realized that they taught me to be what i am now. ms gotico taught me to believe in my prayers and aspirations as what she said when she was our proctor during one of the exams in my second year. and indeed, believing was powerful. it made my fears fade and i regained hope. i also remembered ms. cormary asked me a couple of times if i’m gonna be cum laude or why i didn’t get to be one. so i thought, she must have really believed that i can and it means a lot that to have someone believe in you even if you have lost the battle and have accepted it a long time ago. and i know she really believed in us and had defended our batch especially when we were much wounded. together with some of our clinical instructors, they never let go.

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• i never got into what nursing is until my sophomore year. and it was sir servidad who showed me what it really is during my first real clinical exposure at the surgical ward in SPH. i was really inspired and saw how fulfilling this is. i was lucky enough to learn to love nursing that early. we all had fun during that shift! and of course, his better half, ms timay.. words cannot define how thankful i am to have her as a mentor and a friend. i’ve told her my thanks in our diary but still, it was not enough. but it’s better that i’ve expressed my thanks than nothing said and done. hehe! sir vargas was also very selfless as our review coordinator. he was with us all the time. we felt that he did everything for our own good. and i can never forget the time when we were all in tears when he expressed his confidence that we will get 100% passing and that he only prayed twice for a 100% passing; one was for the june 2006 and one for us.

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• these people may not know this but i wish our 100% passing was enough to bring fulfillment and much affirmation for the good things we shared for the past 4 years.

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• and for my batchmates, the servien christi mariae 2008, we finally did it. we have been through one hell of a time but we finally proved to the world that we’re not called SCM for nothing. i just know in my heart that some people do not believe in what we can, in what i can, but this is an affirmation to them. gone are the days that we look like trash to people. we are after all, stronger and better. if were not strong enough, we wouldn’t be able to redeem ourselves from our cheating incident. if were not better, we wouldn’t be able to learn lessons in books and life. if we were not strong, we would not have gone through capping, graduation, ring and pin ceremony and through the grueling review classes and the 2-day board exams. if we weren’t better,we would not be called paulinians. and lastly, we are not called servien christi mariae 2008 if we weren’t stronger and better!

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• we are the batch who made history, and will continue to make even more marks into the lives of people. one goal..one family!

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• as i reminisce what i’ve been through, i put a smile on my face. nursing made me the person that i wanted to be. this is what i want to do. my love of reflections and life was captivated as i meet new people, hear different stories of happiness and poverty, experience stress beyond what is imaginable and learning to stand strong. my 4 years in nursing was not always waking up to beautiful mornings (but often sleeping in one, haha!). yup, it was so hard but i never gave up. i know i was on the right path.

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• all of this is not possible without divine intervention. i prayed more than i’ve studied. it always works for me. hehe! the board exam experience made me stronger in all aspects. this is again, an affirmation that prayers are very powerful. the lord heard all of our prayers. and i know he gave this grace to us because he knows we all deserve it. what i am spiritually is between me and Him. he was my source of light, wisdom and strength throughout all this. my heart was His, my mind was His and my hands were His as i answered 500 questions that made me. i can never thank Him enough.

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• this has been a fulfilling journey for me. as i begin a new one as a nurse, i know the lord will still be with me..even if i’m going to be unemployed for a long time…even if im not going to be a nurse in another country for a longer time..hehe!

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• "We’re more than a name or face in the crowd, this is the time of our lives"
• –David Cook, Time of our lives

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• as i said, if this is what they call bliss, i’ll do this all over again in a heartbeat!

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august 2008

the day i became one of them

announcing to the world that i am now a nurse!!!

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july 24, 2008, 8 something-ish in the evening:

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• mama was calling me hurriedly and excitedly. i thought there was some colored-feathered bird or an amusing creature who entered our kitchen. (really, what the heck was i thinking?!) then she told me that the results of the board exam was out! oh my god..oh my freakin’ god! my system began to tremble..i was at a state wherin i did not know what to do..my mind was full of ringing noises and distorted pictures. i think i forgot to breathe at that second! i hurriedly listened to the radio as Bombo Radyo was about to announce the result. they were about to announce my life!

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• i was not able to get much sleep that day since i stayed up late the night before (not to forget on the 20th) in anticipation that they’ll release it on the midnight of the 24th. little did i expect that it will be released that night!

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• i let my brother get my phone as i ran to browse the internet. i was in the living room watching Married Away, a new show, when my adrenaline rushed. 2 messages. 1 was from queencie, she said she needed something..i never got to finish it! i skipped to the other one from my high school friend, edrex. "Friend, congrats! RN ka na..100% daw st pauls tapos daw may nakasulod sa top 10." as i read this, part of me is saying, no! u can’t finish the message. u cannot just believe a text. you have to prove it yourself. then a part of me is saying, "i am a nurse. I AM A NURSE!! FINALLY! we all are!! 100% kami!!"

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• then i logged on to yahoo messenger. nang kim was online. she’s my buddy as we await the results. we chat in order to keep our eyes wide. i told her and the people at home that somebody texted me that we got a 100% passing in the NLE! and one was in the top 10. and i’m still in denial! i won’t believe it until i, myself heard it. she told me that was jeff, he is in the top 8. as i knew of it, i was so happy and proud of him. he deserves it more than anybody i know. kudos jeff!

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• we chatted for a while. this was the real stat valvuloplasty moment! my hand were cold, my breathing gets deeper by the minute and my guts are twisted hard, and hard, and hard. i was super nervous and nauseated by then..i got misty eyed. still, every fiber of my being is trembling in anticipation.

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• 100%???? it lingered in my mind but still i won’t believe it. i clarified to edrex how he got the news. it was in bombo radyo, he texted back. by that time, i was texting "bombo fm service hazel joy u. te st. paul university iloilo" to 29765 as directed so that they can say my name on air if i passed. i swear my fingers felt so numb that i didn’t know if i was typing it correctly! i also informed queencie about it but no reply from her.

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• i checked the internet. nothing. no updates yet. PRC website, BON website, inquirer, nursing crib, my email address..all had nothing for me! at this point, i was pacing back and forth from the kitchen to the living room. half of my attention was on the radio. half was on the internet. and yes, i tripped several times as i went back and forth. i felt like my knees were locked and my feet numb! i couldn’t even say what i was feeling. i mean, i was confident that we will make it but still, possibilities are possibilities.

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• i transfered my laptop in the kitchen where papa was listening to the radio. luckily, the announcer was saying that the results are in just as he turned on the radio. i always knew that there’s an advantage in my part out of papa’s habit to listen to the radio every morning, noon and night even if i’m quite irritated sometimes. so i was sitting there, with my laptop, still chatting to nang kim, listening to updates on the radio, with my webcam video on and still trembling. i wanted to capture my reaction as i pass the boards so i turned on the video.

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• minutes later, it was time. several schools were announced. one of them was SPUI. i did not care what are the other schools, my attention was only narrowed to st paul university iloilo and hazel jou u. te. so ok, the schools were mentioned.."AND THEY HAVE A PASSING RATE OF…100%!!"

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• i just yelled. i yelled yes! and held my hand up high in victory. not 5 seconds later, i was in tears. i sent a message to nang kim and queencie saying that the news is confirmed. my tears kept flowing, and it was captured in the video! yikes! after it was announced that we got 100%, i did not bother to listen anymore. it felt like my ears were not functioning. that was all i needed to hear. i just needed to hear that we got 100% then i can give a sigh of relief. first, i was a limp, now i am deaf! this is how the news got into my nerves! haha! minutes later, my name was on air following nang kim’s. i just said YES! again..

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• after that, numerous text messages and calls arrived. fans!.. they never fail to support..haha! friends texted and most relatives from bacolod called. the phones just kept ringing. we were exchanging phones minutes later. news do have wings! i was just in tears that night. the joy was overflowing. we couldn’t believe this is happening! at last we did it! our batch has been through the worst and now, we have proven to the world that we are and we can!

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• mama then mentioned how is ms timay now that we all passed. i texted her then and congratulated her. after a while, she called me on my cell. that was the time i really cried. she is very dear to our batch and a friend to the royalty girls. i just cried the while time she congratulated me and told me she is so happy. she confirmed that jeff is in the top 8. she told me that since the beginning, she never doubted that we will make it. we are different. that got me into super tears. her call really meant a lot to me.

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• jessica also called. i also cried. hehe. as i heard her say congratulations, i was reminded of the november board takers. they are the next to follow our footsteps and i just know that they, too, will make it. the support that they have given to us was undeniably felt by every june taker. i was also touched that a lot had my number and remembered to congratulate me. this made me even happier.

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• early that afternoon, i don’t know what got into me but i took the BP readings of people at home. little did i know that that was my last as a student nurse. i think this is really where i am meant to be. this is what i want to do.

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• we prayed the rosary in thanksgiving that night.

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• i was not able to sleep until about 3 am and woke up at 6:45. i was half asleep the whole time! i woke up with a headache from last night’s crying. that day, we went to school to be reunited again. this time, as new nurses. we were very elated. we were screaming, laughing and joking around the whole time. we went there to thank our clinical instructors, staff, personnel in the school and hospital who contributed to our new self. we also attended our noon mass at sto. nino chapel.

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• after the mass, we congratulated each other. then somebody yelled, si mother queen niyo! my neck stretched so hard until i saw ms. timay’s head. i went up to her and smiled. then she reached out to hug me. there was something in her hug which drove me to tears, again. i don’t know why but i just cried. after that, we took some pictures and talked a while. we had lunch with her at shakey’s after our short talk. she treated us!(which was not planned of course) hehe..

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• later that afternoon, we attended the nursing assembly at school. an ABS-CBN cameraman was there to take a short video clip of us. too bad i was not able to see it in TV patrol iloilo. the whole nursing body stood up in applause as we went up the stage. we were quite shy at first, but who cares? we passed the board exam! after 5 years, SPUI got a 100% passing again. the crown is back at its throne..hehe!

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• we shouted our goal again. but this time, we passed it on to the rest of the paulinians who are aiming to affix the letters "RN" to their names. WE passed to them our goal which is "to pass and top the board exam!"

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• this day was surreal. i just never stopped smiling. everybody is happy. everybody is satisfied.

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• june 26: my name was on the national papers! for the first time!yahoo!

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• at long last, i became one of them.

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• if this is what they call bliss, i am willing to do this all over again!

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july 29, 2008