Double Two's

I turned 22 last February 18. It did not came down to be that I was a year older unlike most celebrants. Most people whine about getting a year older. I cannot see the point. Age is beautiful. I don't care if I'm 22 and jobless or boyfriend-less! It has been that way since day 1. For me, February 18 just felt like an ordinary blessed day before it even started. 

A phone call woke me up that day. I placed my phone on silent mode just to be sure that I won't be disturbed by greetings through text but the stubborn vibration of the phone call cut my journey in dreamland short. Well, it was a greeting from the other side of the world. They were talking and giggling and all I can here are mumbles from the other line. Oh well, my ears are still sleepy. I remember we were mentioning about a mass. All I was thinking was the Ash Wednesday mass which I have attended the previous day. I did not realize that it was a birthday mass he was referring about. Haha! Talk about just an ordinary blessed (sleepy) day. 

That day, I went on practicum duty. I had a Pizza and Donut treat for them that afternoon. We had fun! I am having fun with this practicum thing. Aside from refreshing my skills, I am making new friends. You just gotta love life. Aside from getting text greetings,  also got birthday notes and cards from my best friends that day. they knew I love handwritten notes of sweet nothingness! haha! And I love surprises. Thanks guys, for always! You're the best! The winner was Kai's. It was the most etchos one so I chose it. Haha!

What better way to celebrate having double two's in your age than having two celebrations as well! That weekend, I had a Twitter Party. Well, a mini Twitter Party that is since we were only four - Loren, Marge, Kim and I. But it was hell fun! We ate lunch and talked for hours and hours! I think it was about 4 hours of non stop chika! It was like Twitter came to life! haha! I owe it to my tweethearts to celebrate with them since basically, they are my everyday barkada. they compensate for the lack of a physical one secondary to PAL syndrome vs long distance friendship. Hahaha! Virtual friendship saves the day! 

So that was it. Sorry for the super delayed post. Blame it on writer's block.

22 and loving it!

Love and Bliss!

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I saw The Time Traveler's Wife last Monday, September 14. It was my first time to see a movie alone. I had a good me-time in a long while. The feeling of watching a movie alone was really peaceful. There were like only 10 of us in the theater that afternoon. Most of them had dates while I am alone, treating myself for I deserve it much. The movie was really good! Not really a must see but it's a breather amidst the stereotype of the movies now. The plot was really unique and it makes you think deeper of what true love is. This movie will make you believe that love transcends time and it really is intensified by absence. I give this a two thumbs up! If you are a hopeless romantic movie buff, just like me, you HAVE to watch this flick!

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Anyways, I have not been writing for a while now. I have been going on practicum clinical duty for my Advance Medical Surgical Nursing 3 course. As usual, I still lack confidence in what I was doing. I don't know if it's the assessment tool that I'm using or my skills are just too amateur. But then again, learning is a process. This is work in progress. I'm glad I am finished with the requirements ahead of the others and I have already submitted the written reports yesterday. I am almost done with the course! Hardwork, discipline and being diligent pays. I am really proud of myself that I was able wo work on this faster than what I would usually do. I loved to look at the 2 folders containing 126 pages of hard work combined that I submitted! Maybe the diligent gene finally broke its dormant state in my body.. haha! Nah...I just want to get this over with so that I could start with my research proposal ASAP. The idea of having my second degree next year excites the best in me!

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I really had a fun time yesterday! Dinner with Graduate School CI, CI-turned-classmates and other classmates was fun! It was my former CI, Ms. Cormary's Birthday yesterday. Since she's our classmate, she treated our class for dinner at Imay's. It was really really really fun! Maybe one of the funniest dinners I have been to. God knows how censored the birthday girl's blabbers were. Hahaha! My Golly! haha! (shakes head!) Those chats were just beyond morals! hahaha! Nevertheless, it was my first time to go out on a dinner like that. All of them were not really close to me but I had a fun time! It's nice to have your former instructors ans classmates and friends now. This graduate school experience is really different for me but it made me better in more aspects than one. I enjoyed it!

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And also, the books that I've been waiting to get from Don arrived already! Yipee! I'll read The Time Traveler's Wife and One Tree Hill: A Heart So True soon! I still need to convince Don to let me pay for them although I know that my efforts will be useless! (Haha!) I also got another one at National Book Store last night. What is with me and my unintentional fate of getting many books all in one day?! I bought the Expanded Medicine Blue Book, which I should've gotten before my practicum duty. Oh well, I will still need it later on. It is only this time that I have this enthusiasm to learn much. If only, I had this when I was in college...Nonetheless, it is never too late.

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Love and Bliss!

21 and blissful

Last February 18, a schmuck turned 21. I woke up that morning thinking I AM 21! 21 years have gone by and still, I live in this crazy damn world which surprisingly, taught me how life rolls and how to roll in it in return!

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I was expecting that many people will greet me through text..hehe! and honestly, I was kinda disappointed that the number didn't turn out quite as expected. There are some expected people to greet and there are quite a few which surprised me and made me wonder how come they knew..hehe! Ms. Timay called me twice but I haven't answered it. She called me again that afternoon. She sang the whole Happy Birthday Song! My gosh! I didn't see that coming! hahaha! Love ya Mother Queen!

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I was excited to have dinner with the Royalty Girls that night! It has been quite a while that we haven't been together. Last time we talked we were all just a bunch of problematics! This time, we had time for chikas and more chikas!

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We ate at Afrique's. I was kinda sad I haven't seen Danny Gokey's performance on American Idol that night..hehe! But nevertheless, I enjoyed the night through the company of best friends, endless girl talks and the flavors of Afrique's Special Pizza, Carbonara and Spicy Sausage Ragu and coffee at Coffee Break.

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• At the end of the meal, as a Royalty Girl tradition, they gave me their personalized gift. This year it was a Box Of Love. (I was telling them that I am materialistic this year! haha! Phone patches or special appearances will only trigger a hell of a PTSD!) This box was filled with 21 cards and letters from close friends. They even included letters from the "people always leave club"..haha! I am a self-confessed letter/card/message junkie! I love these things! These are the things that show hearts and souls and realness more than anything. I would rather have a letter than receive some material thing that I don't even need or worse, something not personally hand picked by the giver..(hehe! this can happen, but not that it had or not that i know of..hehe).

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• This box of love made me realize that I MATTER. At times, I feel inferior and in my worse times, I feel invicible. In my worst? I am alone, lonely and forlorn. It is not the best feeling in the world, trust me. But simple things like this made me realize that I am not a shadow in this world. Rather, I can be a light casting on beautiful people to also cast shadows of light to others. Or maybe, I can be that shadow of light. These 21 people make me feel that not only I am in, but most importantly, I belong.

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• Let me say my sincere thanks to these people, in no particular order:

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1. Mama -- thanks a bunch for a bunch
2. Papa -- thanks in additional to giving me money for the dinner before I ask for it..(hahaha!)
3. Shobe -- thanks also for the message and for just being there even if were not the closest of bonds
4. Shoti -- my gulay! how'd you know I wanted a boyfriend for my birthday?! haha! thanks for pulling off a double face by being a cheer and a pain all at the same time!
5. Dhanzel -- didn't saw yours coming! laugh and roll, baby!
6. Jessica --we've been friends since first year and you never fail to greet me on my birthday! I really, really appreciate your letter! Congrats for passing the boards! I cannot forget that you even called me up when I passed mine. I was thinking of doing the same but I was stuck in the internet trying to find your names..hehe..thanks again for the letter. You even did a few artwork there. thank you mucho! and I'm very happy for you! congrats!
7. Jenny -- we've also been friends since first year..hehe..I enjoyed your letter! It made me smile..haha! especially the blank (----) part! hehehe! Good Luck in Med school!
8. Kwini --your letter made me feel really good about myself. thank you for remembering my good moments (helping out during the boards, especially the Nursing Olympiad and even my online shop..hehe). I was really touched. good luck in Med school!
9. Beachbum -- my gosh! you were wishing me to have a boyfriend since a year ago during our retreat! haha! and I still haven't forgot that you sent me this message: "Kai, wen gani bday ni Hazel?" hahaha! its, OK...i enjoyed reading your letter!
10. Isa -- thank you! I appreciate your effort in writing me one. I know you still have your review time but you have managed to squeeze in a little time for me. The stickers spelling out my name sealing the letter are cute! hehe! sometimes, i also missed those times that we have activities here at my house..hehe! we all enjoyed it!
11. Nang Ping Ping -- thanks for the letter nang! I really enjoyed our chika moments during our IVT completion! i was also touched by your message. haha! Im glad "nasadyahan kamo"..haha! thanks also for going out of your way to give it to kai at her house..hehe! I appreciate it!
12. Yanyan -- hey TV and movie buddy! hehe..I'm touched that you bought a stationary pad just for me..haha! for that, i'm gonna download more movies for us! haha! thanks yan! im glad One Tree Hill, Gossip Girl, Twilight, loads of movies and books brought us closer..hehe! till the next download!
13. Nong Don -- need i say more?! haha! in case, you haven't cullenized me yet, i have got to say a few etchos aside words. (i'll try to keep it short..i'll really try..) thanks for the endless random smiles you've generated. It is not the easiest thing in the world to keep those smiles to myself, yah know! i really really enjoyed our late night lengthy talks and laughs when you were still here. haha! and even if you are already there, it's still late night for you but afternoon for me..haha..(daw la gakonek..cge lng..) even if our livers bleed to death for laughing in the middle of the night, sige man gyapon! i guess, silly is an understatement for us. we are higher than the superlative for silly! haha! my gosh! we have made a whole new different world to escape if we're depressed in just '2' months! you have been my partner in crime and in playing with words! haha! thanks for giving my blog half (or more) of its 300+ hits..but more importantly, thanks for listening to my ramblings and for doing me favors although you don't have to or it may be out of your way and was not pushed through..I just wish you're here to see the happy faces of the nov takers..hehe! It would be more fun for Team Betamax. haha! thanks for being obsessed with DH! Here's to more DH, orange chicken and let's sing "Happy Together"!haha! Muchos gracias mi amigo! (sorry, laba gd sya ya..immune ka naman ah!) and you do realize I placed you in the number '1'3', right?!
14. Ms Timay -- thank you for being there and being our Mother Queen. We didn't see your "membership" coming but it was surely worthwhile and worth cherishing. Thanks a lot for inspiring us to rise above ourselves and be the best we can. Thanks also for putting up with our crap..hehe..I will always enjoy chika moments with you! and thanks for singing the whole birthday song on the phone! I enjoyed listening to it.
15. Jennifer -- wow. hehe! well, i was not surpised you have a letter for me since i saw your message in the royalty girls' friendster account..hehe! but i didn't read it for surprise's sake. I'm missing you Jen. (gosh! i feel like crying! haha!) we have so much in common! to start, we're both drama queens! hehe.. i really missed our long talks the most. we can talk all day! How i wish you have visited me here when you went home from Canada. I was really glad you sent me a letter. It still brings the same feeling when we sent constant emails to each other. Thank you for making me feel like I'm the best person in the world with your every line. And although I'm not still comfortable being called super intelligent or I am this girl with extraordinary brains, thank you still for believing that I got them. hehe! Love you always, Jen! Miss you much!
16. Micay -- my cousin and fellow Ra-Ra girl! haha! yeah, I do hope we can work together in the States so that we can do all crazy stuff that we have always imagined, like, watching the 4 sisters ride a roller coaster! haha! that would be so much fun! Konek gid ang I Hope You Dance nga song on your letter. I also posted this on my previous entry. Thanks for the message. Indeed, being 21 is scary but i'm looking forward to the best things that can happen! And oh! Tomorrow will be the Oscars..hehe! I do hope we can watch some of it together in the future! hahaha!
17. Bibi -- I surely miss those old times when we were going at each other's houses! haha.. and yeah, hulam notebook and tutor pa gd! haha! remember "DG" aka codename for cheat? haha! not to mention the Turon, Chicharon and Hotdog! haha! Those were the good times! I sometimes miss being childhood bestfriends again..hehe! At least were still friends now! and i will still be here for you! congrats for passing the boards!
18. , 19, 20, 21. ROYALTY GIRLS -- Kai, Jelai, Queencie, Chessa ----- (golly, i feel like crying!hehe) what can I say?! You pulled it off again! Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you so much for giving me a boxful of love! Thank you for going to Molo, Seven Seven, crossing barriers to get through Canada, Lancaster and Glendale or wherever it is just to collect 21 messages of love for me.. I'm touched! haha! Having friends like you made me appreciate life more. I've told you this in our friendship diary and I will tell you this again. You are one of the bestest thing that has happened to me! This friendship is worth every effort that we've put into. People may be amazed by how much we do extra things for one another and how we do it with flair. I am not surpised by it at all. Isn't this what friendship is? Norm na ni ya sa aton! haha. We have told each other to show them what friendship means and I guess, in our hearts we know that we already did. We have been through a lot, not to mention our uniquely crazy love lives or the lack of one! Our friendhip has been put to test and surely, not one royal soul bailed out. We will always be thankful to Him for that. I guess all I have to say is sorry for being such a bitch at times, sorry for not being the most accepting and supportive friend, for being stubborn, for coming off too strong at times, for being a pain, for being frank or too frank, for being hurtful, for being bossy or evil-ey manipulative, for not being very appreciative, for being such a joke, for laughing at you when you cry (we all do this, don't we?! haha!), for pulling pranks at you, for being hambog and suyaan and ambisyosa or even a gaga monster. Sorry for all of the negatives in me. You know it as much if not even more than me. And I AM SO THANKFUL that even if I am all this you still looked passed the X marks and focus on the few checks that I am. People at times misunderstand me but you girls, pushed your efforts to understand. (ok , i'm tearing up now. I'll wash up first before MIG is drenched..hehe) I will always feel lucky that I have you. I may not have a ton of friends that others have but having the four of you forever can be enough for me. We are individually diverse beings but surprisingly we gelled into one. I can talk about all of you to anyone. I am so proud of how this had gone a long way. I hope we will have to put out all our efforts to stay this bonded. It's not everyday that I can befriend someone and call her a Royalty Girl. It only takes the four of you, plus me and mother queen, to complete the puzzle! Sydney White's mother was correct. "The friends you find in college are you're friends for life". I am SURE as hell of it! Loving you sissies! Congrats on passing the boards for the three of you. Queens, good luck on your Med school! Mwah and mwah!

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• Thanks to all of you who braved their soul and placed their hearts into every line and word for me! Thanks for being part of my 21 years of existence! God Bless all of us! I wish all the best for all you!

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Love and bliss frecklesnoots!

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• Listening To: Love of My Life by Jim Brickman

turning 21

• i am turning 21 tomorrow...yes, i am an adult..a legal adult...this sucks for some reasons..i have to live up to being 21..this means more decisions to be made..more gibberish trash and just unlimited adult stuff!

WELCOME TO THE LEGAL WORLD BUM!

• yesterday, i was trying to think how would i celebrate my birthday. i wanted to drink cocktails for some reasons. haha! drink to being 21! (whatever.) today, it boiled down to dinner at Afrique's with my girlfriends and maybe a sleepover. i don't know! we just go and decide as always anyway.

• Last year, I went in the men's room during my birthday JUST TO WASH MY HANDS! This year, I wish I can do something different. I'm 21!! If I had it my way, and money, place, time, distance and other hullabaloos ain't a concern, I would gladly to these on my birthday:

1. Go to Europe and see the majestic architectures, experience art and culture, ride a Vespa and gondola, eat a gellato, learn French from a native (who speaks good english, of course), visit the Louvre, have a photo with Big Ben at exactly 9 am (the time of my birth), be at the top of Eiffel Tower at sunset, shop at Harrod's, check out cute brit guys, take a tour of the Buckingham Palace and listen to british accents forever until I went home with one!
2. Go on a cruise
3. Have a Spa Party
4. Go sky diving, parasailing, bungee jumping and Fly Fish at Boracay and other adventure stuff that can make hearts leap
5. Snorkeling at Great Barrier Reef (if you can snorkel there, if not, diving eh!)
6. Attend the Oscar Awards
7. Have a photo with Johnny Depp and other prominent stars
8. Snob Tom Cruise (I hate him.)
9. Visit all Universal Studios
10. Watch a One Tree Hill filming ---- this is tops!
11. watch a film shooting
12. Buy loads of books
13. Renovate my house
14. Learn how to play a piano and violin
15. Watch all Cirque du Soleil shows
16. Have an extensive movie collection and a grand home theatre to watch them
17. Find love and be with my one true love ----or maybe, this is tops..
18. Earn in a stable job
19. Live life with utmost positivity and certainty
20. Dream BIG
21. and..keep on dreaming!

You know what they say...Don't ever think you don't deserve what you are dreaming of..That is why i will continue dreaming and being ambitious! hahaha! So what?! I'll be 21!

• I watched American Idol last week and I heard Danny Gokey sing the song, I Hope You Dance. Its by Lee Ann Womack. I hope that I can live by this song as I enter another phase.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty-handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance, I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin'
Don't let some hell-bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance, I hope you dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion, always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
And wonder, where those years have gone)

• love and bliss frecklesnoots! wish me a happy birthday!

Listening To: the TV turned on

good surprise/bad surprise

i used to love watching the good news/ bad news segment of america’s funniest home videos. and again, hazel’s life has its own share..

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• GOOD SURPRISE

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• i celebrated my birthday last ferbruary 18. i always wanted my birthday to fall on class days so that almost everybody i know would have greeted me by the end of the day. birthdays are supposed to be YOUR DAY, right?hehe..this year, i did not expect nor feel like having a celebration. my mind was full of stuffs to do, i can’t even remember.

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• what i was expecting was a gift from the royalties though. it has been our tadition to give personalized gifts on birthdays.As the day went on, I wondered what the girls have in store for me. I smelled something fishy but I ignored it. Anyways, I love surprises. That afternoon, they gave me little cards that have the letters H-A-P-P-Y inscribed on each. They contained messages from friends. I love messages. I wished that they would give me a gift that would contain messages from friends since I’m going senti over this graduation stuff. So OK, I get it. The B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y will come soon and the 5 of them will write on the H-A-Z-E-L.

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• They told me to wait for them since they will be dismissed at 5, 1 hour past my dismissal. At first, I was kind of hesitant but learned that we would meet for our clinical teaching with the other sections so I decided to wait for them. Later, I knew that the plan was to make me wait in school so that my friends can settle in my house for a surprise party. As I entered the door, people came singing the birthday song. It was my friends! I was surprised! My jaw dropped for a second. Hehe!

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• After all the hullabaloos, they got me my real gift. They covered my eyes then revealed it. It was an illustration board that contained the little message cards and a big blue ribbon at the side. As I brushed my fingers through the cards, I saw little pictures of "the guy" inside it. I screamed and seemed not able to look at some of it. They also gave me an envelope containing his profile and bagets pics. I screamed even louder! My mother was just looking at me together with all the people, laughing. HAHA! That was surreal!

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• And I thought that was IT! Until they come screaming and jumping up and down after reading a text message. AHA! Something smelled fishy again and I don’t like the smell of it. It’s getting stench-ier by the minute. After a while, I saw them swarming over the phone. I suspected it was the mother queen but the girl instinct in me shouts it’s NOT! They passed the phone to me and I WON”T ANSWER IT! I CAN”T. I knew it was "the guy". I hesitated to answer but they stuck the phone into my ears. As I said hello, a “man voice” responded.

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• It was really him, who else can it be? Josh Groban?! In my super wildest dream! I withdrew my self from the phone, refusing to talk to him while the rest of the world waits. I could not go far since they grabbed me by the hand and pushed me nearer. The phone wire was stretched so hard to reach me but still, I WON”T. They convinced me to talk to him for long seconds before I “half-agreed”.

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• That was the MOST AWKWARD conversation I ever had! I don’t care what the world says anymore. Who cares? The persons whom I don’t want my secret to be revealed to knows. Huhuhu.. Poor me!

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LIFE CAN GET SWEETER BY THE MINUTE.

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• BAD SURPRISE

• Not so long ago, in a land of smiles and pains, an evil witch messed with two royalties and some of the "commoners". She reprimanded us for correcting the answers of our classmates that we considered correct since they were in the context of the exact answers. she set it as a ground for dishonesty. can we not use our own words and deem it correct since it is close to the exact answer? duh! they called for a conference and some of us were called for the grounds of disrespect just because they were insisting our point that we have no intention of correcting their answers just to raise their scores and explaining that we checked the answers based on our judgement that it is correct. where did the freedom of expression lie? this is the case as i see it. and unless a brave soul speaks to the world what this is all about, i’ll stick to what i believe in. until then, there is no happily ever after yet to occur.

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LIFE IS BITTER, YOU JUST HAVE TO PUT SUGAR ON IT.

march 10, 2008

my birthday moment

i just celebrated my 19th birthday last feb 18…i really had no plans to celebrate this year..all i’m thinking is just a simple family lunch or dinner just like we used to every sunday…well,it tuned out to be different..

after we heard mass,we just went home and ate lunch there,with the usual home cooked meal…we just stayed at home until the afternoon,sleeping and watching tv..more of a couch potato,that is..It was a good thing for me..anyway,all i really wanted for my birthday is rest and sleep..and i got it! (hehe)..It also made me appreciate more the value of simplicity and living the simple life..it was quite okay..no fuss, no big preparations, no stress…

friends also texted me,greeting me a happy birthday as well as a happy chinese new year..i feel really good that people still remember my special day..

at night.we planned to eat out..on the way to the resto,i wondered why jessica did not greet me that day..she was the one reminding me that my birthday is coming in the past week and she teased me one time to treat her at the restaurant in which we will be eating in that night…i just felt something fishy at that moment but i did not mind it…when we arrived there,we waited for my brother to arrive since he also celebrated his birthday with friends that afternoon..(gosh! kids of today..tsk,tsk..) it was just timely that i checked my cellphone when a friend sent an SMS greeting me for my birthday..then,a i recieved a message from jessica,asking me where i am..i replied and i kinda wondered why…after a few minutes,she arrived along with kai and chessa…turns out it was a surprise party,i guess!

jes was my mother’s accomplice in such short notice..she called her that noon to call up my friends to come over for dinner..too bad only a few came..mals was a bit late but still made it..hehe..some were shy,i guess…

all in all, it was a great night! one thing that added to my enjoyment was the fact that my duty in the psychiatric ward would start at 1 pm the next day..it means,more sleep time!yey!hehe..

It was really a good night..friends and family could really make up your day!

however,im still young and not old..as i was saying, old,is always 50 years older than your age..(hehe) march 2, 2007