turning 21

• i am turning 21 tomorrow...yes, i am an adult..a legal adult...this sucks for some reasons..i have to live up to being 21..this means more decisions to be made..more gibberish trash and just unlimited adult stuff!

WELCOME TO THE LEGAL WORLD BUM!

• yesterday, i was trying to think how would i celebrate my birthday. i wanted to drink cocktails for some reasons. haha! drink to being 21! (whatever.) today, it boiled down to dinner at Afrique's with my girlfriends and maybe a sleepover. i don't know! we just go and decide as always anyway.

• Last year, I went in the men's room during my birthday JUST TO WASH MY HANDS! This year, I wish I can do something different. I'm 21!! If I had it my way, and money, place, time, distance and other hullabaloos ain't a concern, I would gladly to these on my birthday:

1. Go to Europe and see the majestic architectures, experience art and culture, ride a Vespa and gondola, eat a gellato, learn French from a native (who speaks good english, of course), visit the Louvre, have a photo with Big Ben at exactly 9 am (the time of my birth), be at the top of Eiffel Tower at sunset, shop at Harrod's, check out cute brit guys, take a tour of the Buckingham Palace and listen to british accents forever until I went home with one!
2. Go on a cruise
3. Have a Spa Party
4. Go sky diving, parasailing, bungee jumping and Fly Fish at Boracay and other adventure stuff that can make hearts leap
5. Snorkeling at Great Barrier Reef (if you can snorkel there, if not, diving eh!)
6. Attend the Oscar Awards
7. Have a photo with Johnny Depp and other prominent stars
8. Snob Tom Cruise (I hate him.)
9. Visit all Universal Studios
10. Watch a One Tree Hill filming ---- this is tops!
11. watch a film shooting
12. Buy loads of books
13. Renovate my house
14. Learn how to play a piano and violin
15. Watch all Cirque du Soleil shows
16. Have an extensive movie collection and a grand home theatre to watch them
17. Find love and be with my one true love ----or maybe, this is tops..
18. Earn in a stable job
19. Live life with utmost positivity and certainty
20. Dream BIG
21. and..keep on dreaming!

You know what they say...Don't ever think you don't deserve what you are dreaming of..That is why i will continue dreaming and being ambitious! hahaha! So what?! I'll be 21!

• I watched American Idol last week and I heard Danny Gokey sing the song, I Hope You Dance. Its by Lee Ann Womack. I hope that I can live by this song as I enter another phase.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty-handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance, I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin'
Don't let some hell-bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance, I hope you dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion, always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
And wonder, where those years have gone)

• love and bliss frecklesnoots! wish me a happy birthday!

Listening To: the TV turned on

loving someone fearless

"The album is called FEARLESS and I guess I'd like to clarify why we choose that as a title. To me, FEARLESS is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, I think it's FEARLESS to stop believing them. It's FEARLESS to say you're not sorry and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright that's FEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That's why I write these songs. Because I think love is FEARLESS."

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• this is apparently from taylor swift's album cover. i read this from hilarie burton's blog. (i just typed 'read' as 'red' and changed it..what's this RED obsession about?! haha!) i follow her blog and it's such a laughtrip!

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• i'm currently loving taylor swift!! she really do sing people's lives and i identify to her songs..she's great! her songs are really easy to listen and the words are perfectly strung together matching a girl's heart..some songs are also quite empowering..taylor swift can be a breakthrough from listening to air supply, barry manilow, chicago and jose mari chan for the past couple of months..hehe!

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• i'm also currently reading confessions of a shopaholic by sophie kinsella. the book is hilarious! and i can identify with becky bloomwood's ambitious level! haha..but she's really, really shopaholic! looking forward to the movie more!!

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• will blog about my newly arrived book stash on the next days! it did clear up my mind on the mailman thing..and thanks to nong don for asking extra cards..hehe..i was quite surprised when i got to see the comments..didn't saw that one coming..hehe! THANK YOU MUCHO!! still waiting for nang estelle's reply..

soundtracks of my disposition

Just For Today by India Arie Just for today, I will not worry what tomorrow may bring, no. I'm going to try something new Walk through this day like I got nothing to prove yeah yeah. Although, I have the best intentions Can't predict anyone's reactions So I just do my best. I put one foot in front of the other And keep on moving forward And let God do the rest.

I don't know what's going to happen that's alright with me
I open up my arms and I embrace the mystery.
I don't know what's going to happen that's alright with me
I open up my arms and I embrace the mystery.

Just for today I'm telling the truth like it's going outta style
I'm going to swallow my pride, and be who I am
And I don't care who don't like it.
I feel fear but I do it anyway
I won't let it stand in the way,
I know what I must do.
There's no guarantee that it'll be easy,
But I know it'll be fufilling and it's time for me to sure improve.

Its ok not to know
Exploration is how we grow
Its ok to not have the answer
Cos sometimes its the question that matters

I don't know what's going to happen that's alright with me
I open up my arms and I embrace the mystery.
I don't know what's going to happen that's alright with me
I open up my arms and I embrace the mystery. 

Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten


march 23, 2007

nice and easy

this is dream on me by kirsten dunst...she sang it on "get over it"...
i liked the idea of the modern "midsummer night's dream they created...

she sang this in a portion of the play...liked the lyrics and melody of the song!! 

Let me sleep
For when I sleep I dream that you are here
You're mine
And all my fears are left behind
I float on air
The nightingale sings gentle lullabies
So let me close my eyes...

And sleep, perchance to dream
So I can see the face I long to touch, to kiss
But only dreams can bring me this

So let the moon
Shine soflty on the boy I long to see
And maybe when he dreams
He'll dream of me

I'll hide beneath the clouds, and
Whisper to the evening stars
They tell me love
Is just a dream away
Dream away, dream away
I'll dream away..

So let the moon
Shine softly on the boy I long to see, and
Maybe when he dreams
He'll dream of me...

Oooh dream of me...