Today was very tiring. I was at school for a whole day class. Theoretical Foundations of Education was practically a crash course this time! haha! Nevertheless, it did not prevent me to be happy.
These past few days, I was once again, having weird dreams. The kind of dreams that make you wonder "what the heck?!". They were topsy turvy, jumping from once scene to another and involving unusual persons. I think I had 3 in a month now. I have read in an article that dreams are the outlet of your subconscious. They show suppressed thoughts, thoughts that you run away from but eventually have to face. A key to recurrent dreams is getting the dreams' main theme. As I try to remember my dreams, I eventually realized that I am in a state of being in a hurry; running away from being chased. I was running to get my bag, being in a hurry to get home and running away from someone. But someone always comes to the rescue to fetch me and helps to get me home.
The thing is, I have been thinking a lot lately. To work or not to work this year? As much as it is important to have a decision as soon as possible, I always see myself suppressing that thought. I am preoccupied with Graduate School these days. The assignments can be quite monstrous! I want to concentrate in getting my Masters but I am also thinking of the time that will pass with me not getting a clinical experience and seeing classmates who are passing exams and working makes me feel useless. However, if I will go on full semesters all the way, I can have my thesis done and hopefully graduate by March next year. And so, I am in a dilemma. A dilemma that I don't want to think about just yet. Something that I am running away from but stresses me a lot because I need to be in a hurry to make a decision. (Dreams do really make sense. And it's weird being your own shrink..haha!)
Now, the happy thing is, my prayers were answered. But the irony and funny thing is, those somebodys that help me get home is actually the somebodys that helped me in this dilemma. They did not exactly make me ride in their car and took me home, but they helped me in finding my answer. At the end of the day, problems do have solutions, comfortable solutions; just like what home is. The other day, my answer was 50-50. But today, it was confirmed. I am not working just yet. Ms. Timay and I talked this morning. I didn't care that my class was probably starting, I just had to finish that talk. Besides, it was really fun. And as much as I am an "angel to her", I think she is more and angel to me. The Lord answered my prayers. THE LORD ANSWERED MY PRAYERS!!! She just gave me a work opportunity which would allow me to focus on getting that second degree. I'm not even sure if that work means work=job=pay or work=help=no pay. It involves being in the secretariat for accreditation along with a buddy of mine. Nurse secretary..haha! The core of this relief is that I will have something to work on, hopefully sooner and hopefully it will happen, other than my assignments. Plus, I have something to place in my resume that will show what I did before applying for jobs. Now I just have to wait for reality top unfold. Hopefully, this is certain.
"Haze, indi ka lang anay mag-ubra ha.." never sounded that good. It gave me a sense of relief. This is a different kind of happey. This is not just "jolly happy" but more like, "happy inside".. Now, I can have a good night sleep. No hurrying...No running away...I am finally home.
Love and Bliss!!!!
These past few days, I was once again, having weird dreams. The kind of dreams that make you wonder "what the heck?!". They were topsy turvy, jumping from once scene to another and involving unusual persons. I think I had 3 in a month now. I have read in an article that dreams are the outlet of your subconscious. They show suppressed thoughts, thoughts that you run away from but eventually have to face. A key to recurrent dreams is getting the dreams' main theme. As I try to remember my dreams, I eventually realized that I am in a state of being in a hurry; running away from being chased. I was running to get my bag, being in a hurry to get home and running away from someone. But someone always comes to the rescue to fetch me and helps to get me home.
The thing is, I have been thinking a lot lately. To work or not to work this year? As much as it is important to have a decision as soon as possible, I always see myself suppressing that thought. I am preoccupied with Graduate School these days. The assignments can be quite monstrous! I want to concentrate in getting my Masters but I am also thinking of the time that will pass with me not getting a clinical experience and seeing classmates who are passing exams and working makes me feel useless. However, if I will go on full semesters all the way, I can have my thesis done and hopefully graduate by March next year. And so, I am in a dilemma. A dilemma that I don't want to think about just yet. Something that I am running away from but stresses me a lot because I need to be in a hurry to make a decision. (Dreams do really make sense. And it's weird being your own shrink..haha!)
Now, the happy thing is, my prayers were answered. But the irony and funny thing is, those somebodys that help me get home is actually the somebodys that helped me in this dilemma. They did not exactly make me ride in their car and took me home, but they helped me in finding my answer. At the end of the day, problems do have solutions, comfortable solutions; just like what home is. The other day, my answer was 50-50. But today, it was confirmed. I am not working just yet. Ms. Timay and I talked this morning. I didn't care that my class was probably starting, I just had to finish that talk. Besides, it was really fun. And as much as I am an "angel to her", I think she is more and angel to me. The Lord answered my prayers. THE LORD ANSWERED MY PRAYERS!!! She just gave me a work opportunity which would allow me to focus on getting that second degree. I'm not even sure if that work means work=job=pay or work=help=no pay. It involves being in the secretariat for accreditation along with a buddy of mine. Nurse secretary..haha! The core of this relief is that I will have something to work on, hopefully sooner and hopefully it will happen, other than my assignments. Plus, I have something to place in my resume that will show what I did before applying for jobs. Now I just have to wait for reality top unfold. Hopefully, this is certain.
"Haze, indi ka lang anay mag-ubra ha.." never sounded that good. It gave me a sense of relief. This is a different kind of happey. This is not just "jolly happy" but more like, "happy inside".. Now, I can have a good night sleep. No hurrying...No running away...I am finally home.
Love and Bliss!!!!
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